You Make Me Wanna..

..! Dance into the fire.`

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x_punkkat
New laptop, fuck yeah!

the pain keep creeping.
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x_punkkat
School is out for the summer. I managed to pull B's in all but two classes. Biology Lab I got an A and in Chemistry, big surprise, a C. I don't know how I did it.. but I'm never doing it again. Lol, unless I work a whole lot less next time.

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x_punkkat
The days seem like they don't have enough time. I can't get the things I need to get done for lack of motivation. I am getting increasingly self conscious of my body and how I look everyday. I am on a continuous path of depression and feel the need to talk to Joel. Its really weird, but I feel he's the furthest thing that still understands me... in a way.I'm torn with everything in my life. I hate everything. I have no interest in anything.

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x_punkkat
I have problems with myself.

But, you all already know that.

I don't like me.

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x_punkkat
I will be the queen someday.

Why?

Because I am amazing. Anyone who can have me is lucky.. lucky they were able to open my mind and possibly my heart to get my attention. I give large amounts of love and I can learn to show someone affection. I am caring and I understand. I can comfort and make the world right again. I am everything you could ever need. All I have to give is myself and my love. And I want to give it to you. Am I wrong when I say no one can honestly resist me?

That is why someday I will be the queen. The queen who acquired her king in a lost, fucked up world when he saw the beauty in her.

The beauty in me will flourish.

let me see.
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x_punkkat
Well I never have plans so I can't tell you what an amazing weekend I'm having because I don't know.
I have the same schedules every week and its work, work, work. School and my job work.

So here I am. Alive.

[:

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x_punkkat
I've gone from wanting the sex to just wanting that close cuddle feeling that might occur afterwards.
I want to feel the skin to skin touch like when two people rub their legs together..
I want to have that gaze place upon me of pure love and the ability to smile back knowing that I love them too.
I want to hold hands and feel complete.
I want to be done with life just so I know everything turned out okay.

I'm done with this. I'm done with living.

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x_punkkat
I feel like a lovesick fool just fooling myself. With no where to go and no one to see. I get my hopes up only to find myself fallen right back down. The anger builds manifested from no region.

I like ow songs reids me of what used to be. I get feelings that come up tjrpuhj my soul. Or the area I believe to be in inner feelings. I don't really know where my thoughts come from. I don't realy know what I want to do with my life. I really just wish I was somewhere off in my head. IN a place where I can call it my own where everyone I wanted was there. I didn't have to have a care in the world and I could just relax. I listen to songs such as What Is Love and it reminds me of my past. Feelings that I believe at this point probably weren't even real. I hate how I lost my only muse in life. I would ike to have feeling again. I want someone to love me but I have to be able to love them back. So its not so much that I want love its that I want to love someone.

And I'm keeping all that nonesense right there as it is because I just typed that fucker with my eyes close. Haaaa.

FUCK english and my cats.
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x_punkkat
So I downloaded a bunch of songs just now and the ONE song I really wanted to listen to was all messed up. ]: Its just the fucking cherry on things.. lol.

So I have one last thing to do for English and all my homework is generally done.. and I'm here avoiding it still.

Basically this is me checking in.

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x_punkkat
My body has a craving.

Ohwellfuck.

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